Not strong at all

Last time i mentioned that i get hurt~ It happened last month, about a month ago, I tot i oredi forget it and accept the truth.. I tot that i'm quite strong, BUT I'm wrong.... This few days i'm quite free, nothing to do at home~ The case keep appear on my mind, which i feel very very sad.. I still remember what my head told me, i feel very hurt and sad.. 

Other than that, I feel very helpless, I don't understand why always got quarrel among my gang? I don't why everyone can't tolerant, forgive and even love ur frens? How come always got people quarrel even unfriend with each others... I feel tired to become the middle person~ You say him or her what what, he or she say you what what.. Sometimes both saying different things? Who i'm going to believe? Who i'm going to help? Who i'm going to comfort? Who i'm going to friend? Please teach me how to do? I'm super tired to face this kind of problem.. Please be mature! 

Promise

Blog, thank you for your kindness, thank you for your patient to listen my heart~

Recently, I feel very weird, i dunno how to describe my feeling and i just feel like dunno how to face my life.... I get a very serious hurt in my career, i get a complaint which i don't think is a big case, but my record had spoiled.. My head hurt me so much which very hard for me to accept and face them.. In the other hand, i choose to continue my job.. I dunno this is a correct way or not, i just feel very helpless...

I heard many negative things in my areas which scared me a lots and I started to regret to promise my head to continue.. I really need God to help me and I really need to myself : LEE LE WEI, don't worried so much, God will always be with ME, be faith and believe in Him! Pray and be patient to wait~ LEE LE WEI All the Best!

Thank You Lord for your kindness grace, I'm proud to said I'm your child~ Because you give me hope and happiness, I promise will be strong to face this~

Wei~

Speechless

School holiday coming soon.. Students become more lazy and their attitude are getting more worst.. In the other hand, teachers are busying to settle all the things before the holiday~ Same to me, I'm working hard finish my work and then go for my holidays..

I was so angry today.. I'm asking my students to sit down quietly and do their works and I was busying failing students stuff to their individual file.. A kid keep going here and there, he did not do his work.. I was very angry and bit his hand.. During the times, I was thinking am i going to kena shoot by the parents? 

Yes...

My sens was true~ The parents really come and shoot me.. (a colleague inform me).....

Speechless and I dunno how to face this problem~ 

Pray hard that I'm safe tmr!! 

4 Nov 12

Few days ago, my friend told me that he read my blog.. Wow, I was so surprised, i tot no one will be that free to read my blog.. Due to this reason, my blogging mood coming back.. haha

I already become a teacher about 10 months.. I can said it is not easy to become a teacher, it is super difficult to become a good teacher.. Many tot that teacher is a very easy job, at 1st i also think that.. BUT, it is NOT.. Besides marking and teaching, it were many paper works... My class end around 2pm, but i came back home about 4pm or 5pm.. Many ppl think that i'm going to enjoy or relax myself, but i can tell u, i'm OTing at school.. I can't imagine that if i'm a full time teacher, what my life is going to be........ God ar! Guide me and Lead my way..

Secondly, I'm still very miss my Liverpool life~ I miss my room, my kitchen, my friends, my housemates, my church, my shopping place...... Times pass very fast, oredi 1 year ago, oredi list on the history~ Can the times return back?? haha...

Questioning?

I'm questioning myself, do i need to quite my job as a teacher now? I really found that I don't know how to control those little evil.. Most of them are not naughty, but they are only noisy and like to disturb others.. Some of them really put me at a side, I can feel that they dislike me... Not listening to me at all....... I get hurt.... Some of them said i'm boring, some of them said i'm not good at all, i'm fierce, i'm crazy... As i know, it is not easy to be a teacher, especially a good teacher... But i'm trying my best, but seems like I'm making wrong decision to choose the education field as my career.. BUT i really wish to continue in this area....


I can only said that is my own fault.. I don't know how to control the class, don't know how to use the funny way to teach, don't know how to communicate with them and etc.. I should pray hard and ask God, it is this is my way or got another better way are waiting for me~ 

忘不了~忘不了

忘不了~  真是忘不了一年前在利物浦的日子。一早睡醒就忙着准备吃早餐及准备好午餐带去学校。然后就与朋友集合，一起从宿舍走路去学校。上课时等午餐时间，午餐后的上课等放学。放学后，忙着到市中心逛逛及购买晚餐所需要的东西。回到宿舍后就忙着准备晚餐，然后一起享用大家的杰作。后，便一起交流，玩玩！最后才有自己的私人空间。。好“充实”的日子。。


Yong Jun 六月，Chi Kit 七月，Ivy 美环，Xiu Qiu 秀裘，Sidney Wai Ken, Ballack... 你们还好吗？有想念我们一起过的日子吗？ 我好想你们啊。。

Ken, Joe, Yoga.. 我的同屋主，你们还好吗？

Silver, Angeny, Hui Min, Qiu Min and Etc... 还好吗？

Joseph, Joel, Joyce, Samson, Mei Mei, Andy, Matthew, Lissa, Michelle and etc... 你们又如何？还记得我们一起走路去教会吗？一起参加崇拜及团契？非常怀念我们每次挤在Samson的房里一起赞美，分享及祷告。。愿我们持续在这边仰望及侍奉我们的神~ 

Complaint

How come everyone like to complaint? How come we can't stand on people side and think for him or her? Even a small kids also like to complaint here and there...

Sometimes I'm questioning God, how come my life so ups and downs/trouble.. Everyone like to complaint me and talk about my mistakes.. I know that when you talk about my mistakes, i can improve... But i need some true praise words.... I'm very tired to listen those bad things about me........

Can you guys stand at my view and think for me? Please be grateful before you complain.. I know that i'm not a perfect people BUT i'm trying my best to do everything! Stop complaining me please~~ I'm very tired! I'm very sad....... God pls help me, I know you are testing me.. Evil are around me~ Sorry God! Sorry God, I'm complaining You..... I really need your help to gain my faith to trust more and more......

2012 New Life

Such a long time, i did not update my blog.. I guess nowadays nobody will be that free to sitting infront the pc to share their daily life and i guess nowadays people are Fbing more than blogging.. I guess no one will be reading this blog.. I'm just write for fun! hahaha...

2011 is a very memorable years in my life.. I did go to Liverpool for my three months studies and around two months travel around Europe~ I miss the moment very much~

However, 2012 is a very challenging year in my life... I entered Social University started my work for around 6 months already~ I'm now a government worker, a temporary at SJK (C) Mun Choong.. Everyday facing those "Small Evil".. haha... Now i only realize, the job physically looking very good.. It is just a half day job and go in to class teach then end of a day job.. BUT, it is also quite suffer... Wake up early in the morning, when u enter the class, no matter how tired you are, you won't feel sleepy at all because those "small evil" will let you shock and give you some "surprise".... haha... Every class also need shout shout shout, bark bark bark, like a dog.. haha... Besides that, there are also many paper work... The most important thing is you have to face some very trouble parents.. Little small case then come and complain here and there...... As a conclusion, don't think that teacher is an easy job...........

I have to say a million SORRY to my previous teachers and lecturers... Now i only understand it is not easy to become a teacher... Thanks too all my teachers and lecturers for your teaching~~