Not strong at all

Last time i mentioned that i get hurt~ It happened last month, about a month ago, I tot i oredi forget it and accept the truth.. I tot that i'm quite strong, BUT I'm wrong.... This few days i'm quite free, nothing to do at home~ The case keep appear on my mind, which i feel very very sad.. I still remember what my head told me, i feel very hurt and sad.. 

Other than that, I feel very helpless, I don't understand why always got quarrel among my gang? I don't why everyone can't tolerant, forgive and even love ur frens? How come always got people quarrel even unfriend with each others... I feel tired to become the middle person~ You say him or her what what, he or she say you what what.. Sometimes both saying different things? Who i'm going to believe? Who i'm going to help? Who i'm going to comfort? Who i'm going to friend? Please teach me how to do? I'm super tired to face this kind of problem.. Please be mature! 

Promise

Blog, thank you for your kindness, thank you for your patient to listen my heart~

Recently, I feel very weird, i dunno how to describe my feeling and i just feel like dunno how to face my life.... I get a very serious hurt in my career, i get a complaint which i don't think is a big case, but my record had spoiled.. My head hurt me so much which very hard for me to accept and face them.. In the other hand, i choose to continue my job.. I dunno this is a correct way or not, i just feel very helpless...

I heard many negative things in my areas which scared me a lots and I started to regret to promise my head to continue.. I really need God to help me and I really need to myself : LEE LE WEI, don't worried so much, God will always be with ME, be faith and believe in Him! Pray and be patient to wait~ LEE LE WEI All the Best!

Thank You Lord for your kindness grace, I'm proud to said I'm your child~ Because you give me hope and happiness, I promise will be strong to face this~

Wei~

Speechless

School holiday coming soon.. Students become more lazy and their attitude are getting more worst.. In the other hand, teachers are busying to settle all the things before the holiday~ Same to me, I'm working hard finish my work and then go for my holidays..

I was so angry today.. I'm asking my students to sit down quietly and do their works and I was busying failing students stuff to their individual file.. A kid keep going here and there, he did not do his work.. I was very angry and bit his hand.. During the times, I was thinking am i going to kena shoot by the parents? 

Yes...

My sens was true~ The parents really come and shoot me.. (a colleague inform me).....

Speechless and I dunno how to face this problem~ 

Pray hard that I'm safe tmr!! 

4 Nov 12

Few days ago, my friend told me that he read my blog.. Wow, I was so surprised, i tot no one will be that free to read my blog.. Due to this reason, my blogging mood coming back.. haha

I already become a teacher about 10 months.. I can said it is not easy to become a teacher, it is super difficult to become a good teacher.. Many tot that teacher is a very easy job, at 1st i also think that.. BUT, it is NOT.. Besides marking and teaching, it were many paper works... My class end around 2pm, but i came back home about 4pm or 5pm.. Many ppl think that i'm going to enjoy or relax myself, but i can tell u, i'm OTing at school.. I can't imagine that if i'm a full time teacher, what my life is going to be........ God ar! Guide me and Lead my way..

Secondly, I'm still very miss my Liverpool life~ I miss my room, my kitchen, my friends, my housemates, my church, my shopping place...... Times pass very fast, oredi 1 year ago, oredi list on the history~ Can the times return back?? haha...

Questioning?

I'm questioning myself, do i need to quite my job as a teacher now? I really found that I don't know how to control those little evil.. Most of them are not naughty, but they are only noisy and like to disturb others.. Some of them really put me at a side, I can feel that they dislike me... Not listening to me at all....... I get hurt.... Some of them said i'm boring, some of them said i'm not good at all, i'm fierce, i'm crazy... As i know, it is not easy to be a teacher, especially a good teacher... But i'm trying my best, but seems like I'm making wrong decision to choose the education field as my career.. BUT i really wish to continue in this area....


I can only said that is my own fault.. I don't know how to control the class, don't know how to use the funny way to teach, don't know how to communicate with them and etc.. I should pray hard and ask God, it is this is my way or got another better way are waiting for me~